Check In WEEK 4 — Releasing Judgement

It's very funny, when I get to the week-end check-ins, I think "is that what we explored this week?" "did I previously answer these questions?" Hmmm...

This week we explored Releasing Judgment, particularly over our financial lives.
How successful was this for you?
I don't actually think I explored releasing judgement related to my finances. I realized that judgement becomes harsh and unproductive when we're not letting in new information based on our past judgements/ideas about something. What are my past ideas about my finances that may be prohibiting me from having a new experience? 
I am not worthy
I don't deserve
Wealth isn't meant for me
I have failed because I haven't saved
I have failed because I haven't invested
I have to get rid of money as soon as it comes in
Abundance in the form of money is illusory
Money is only meant to be exchanged for other things
Money itself has no value
That one is sticking. Money itself has no value. Whether or not this is "true," it is contrary to my idea that I want money, and likely helps prohibit me from accumulating money. 
As I sit with this, I feel how much my internal system believes this: Money itself has no value. I need to pause before answering the rest.
What do I believe has value?
Experiences, people, things I can feel/touch/sense. Like, the money I'm saving for my trip has value because it gets me a plane ticket or hotel room. The innate value is in what I do with money. As I'm typing and pausing and typing and pausing, I can feel sensations in my solar plexus, and emotion coming up from those sensations. The word Value has, and has had, a lot of meaning for me.
I feel the truth in the accumulation of money being a demonstration of holding Value and potential Value. Like, I am Valuing my potential future experiences MORE by accumulating money. That feels right. 

Were you able to soften or release any judgments?
Just now, it feels like Yes.

Did you discover what you previously thought was "The Truth" only to see that there was more to the story?
Just now, Yes.

How high a price do you pay for maintaining Old Stories however true they might seem?
A high price.

What do you think might Transform in your life if you were really able to Release Judgment about your Financial Past?
I feel like what holds me back more than judgement about my past, is beliefs that I don't even know I'm holding.

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