MyFinancialCourse

On a practical level, are there areas of your financial life where you're experiencing being stuck? Are there any behaviors—whether that's balancing your checkbook or paying more attention to your credit card statements—that you know would benefit you? The place I feel stuck right now is in my income. In fact, however, I have recently opened new paths to income, but they aren't yet steady so it doesn't quite feel like it. I feel like I got to this place of income that supports a pretty well-balanced life. I have free time, I have a job I enjoy, I have the ability to travel and make plans. I can pay for myself and my fur family to live and eat well. I also have gotten to the point that I recognize and appreciate these things. That's a big deal too. I know that I've created something that's been sustaining me, and helping me thrive for a few years now. AND, I want more. Not just more, but different. I do question the longevity of my current money-makin...

“Willingness to change is a strength, even if it means plunging part of the company into total confusion for a while.” Jack Welch I love change. So I tell myself. And oftentimes when I'm in confusion, I have enough awareness to remind myself this is what comes before clarity. Sweet. But as I was experiencing yesterday, change is harder in some parts of my life than others. I'm open to the changes resulting in clarifying the life path. But there are personality aspects that I keep even as the rest of my life unfolds. Aspects that maybe could be let go.

This is what today's lesson asked me: Spend a moment examining any areas of your life where you've experienced a persistent struggle. Have you truly been willing to change? My response: most days I sit with the message or question, feel my body, breathe. Today, I read this, attempted to sit with it, got distracted and started looking at all my credit card accounts and facebook. When I notice I'm doing this, I recognize it as a loop. My mind wants to distract me from feeling what I feel. My first thought about this question was my body. I recently released 40 pounds, and then have been at the same place for a few months. I was noticing this morning how bloated I am even though I've been eating more cleanly than I have for years, with the only exceptions being some cleanses. So, am I willing to change? What would it be like to open this up and drop into the next healthiest level for my body? I feel fear come up to the surface of my skin when I type that question....

Gently self-examine where your attention goes when you think about your Money Life. For now, my financial life excites me. I am actively working to get myself out of debt and the financial world outside of me is responding. My credit score has gone up, I'm getting many offers for 0% balance transfers. I'm using these to transfer my current debt and pay it off without more interest. I used my credit card recently for an emergency, but I have not been using my CC's for willy nilly purchases. This is excellent progress. I really just had to hear this message from someone I considered an authority (but not the type of authority I wanted to rebel against): pay of your credit cards. They are leaking energy.  When we talked about it (this financial adviser and I), it was the first time it really clicked into place for me how much money per month I was just sending down the drain. I was able to hear it and see it and want to change it. And now I am. And it's awesome. 

1/5/19 My current level of self-awareness around my finances—knowing account balances, interest rates, having clear goals etc. is pretty good. I have been working toward, and continue to work toward, paying off my credit cards. I know my interest rates and have paid off the ones with the highest rates.  My feelings about this right now are good. I know that more financial knowledge is up-and-coming, but this is my current focus. 9/30/21 My current level of self-awareness around my finances--knowing account balances, interest rates, having clear goals etc. is high. I have looked into these things multiple times over the last couple of years. My feelings about this right now are anxious. I feel anxious because these things feel insurmountable.  In writing this, I decided to call 1 of my CC companies with whom I have 2 CCs totaling $13,000 in debt or so. I have the option to keep making my regular payments, re-apply for a fixed payment in a month, stop making payments and get a...

“I'm willing to love myself….” on the inhale and “Exactly as I am…” on the exhale. While doing this I felt my imperfections. My physical imperfections, and asked secretly "Am I?"

What I really want to let go of in my financial life is more space. I love the idea of my bills coming far apart. In fact, I've recently reduced my number of bills significantly, and that feels amazing. More of that. And more space in my life, and the finances to support that. My working and everything can have more space. What I really want to create is the ability to take myself and others anywhere we want to go. The feeling I want to create around money is ease, like amazing waves lapping up against me to nourish and offer me all that I need and want, yet my wants and needs are gently and have simplicity.