Lesson 19: Getting Unstuck

Before I go into today's questions, I'm noticing that when I open the Daily OM emails this week, I'm getting a little anxious. Maybe it is about this week's topic - getting unstuck. AAAAAAAHHHHHHH

On a practical level, are there areas of your financial life where you're experiencing being stuck?
Yes, duh, or I wouldn't be doing this course. Alright, getting a little defensive. Specifically, I feel stuck in my current income level. I don't want to work more at my current job; I am capped at how much I can make there for now; I have attempted to open up other potential income sources to no avail. And it pisses me off!

Are there any behaviors--whether that's balancing your checkbook or paying more attention to your credit card statements--that you know would benefit you?
Oh, yes! Tithing and saving are two things that would benefit me immensely. They always have, yet I get out of the rhythm of doing it and then don't go back for a long while, or then I spend all of my savings or some shit. There's more beyond that, but those are the beginning steps. 

What's up with these behaviors? Well, I believe at a symbolic level, income relates to my level of worthiness - how worthy I feel; not my actual worthiness that is indefinably infinite. It also relates to how much responsibility I'm willing to take. Hmmm...

As far as the saving, I know I can "save up" for something when it feels worthwhile. Just generally saving is...well...intellectually I know the benefits. For sure. But on a daily action-based level, it feels like I want something NOW rather than potentially something later. How funny. I'm also noticing my use of "worthwhile" again.

I also need to note that throughout this process, my body and size seem very interwoven with this financial business. I can't say how directly, but the two come up in my mind A LOT in combination. Definitely the worthiness part, and wanting something NOW and all that kind of jazz. More to mull.

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