Lesson 55: Return to Bliss

Do you authentically believe that once you move past what you're avoiding that a more authentic, much deeper level of happiness and security awaits?

 Yes, I do believe that. I would also like to respond to a question that was not asked: how does my body feel about this? 

 This week, each Lesson I open, I definitely want to avoid. This is what is coming up in my body reading today's lesson:
I feel a shimmer in my throat and chest. I feel like a lot of my sensation went to the surface of my body away from my core. It feels like panic. My palms are getting a little sweaty. I feel a lump coming up my throat. My arms are starting to shake a little bit now. A wave of emotion is coming up. I just took a breath. I still have some shaking. It's behind my neck and head now. 

 Well that is just fascinating. All this body sensation and process just from thinking about what I'm not thinking about. My mind is trying to go on a bunch of different paths into overwhelm, and I'm reminding my mind that, at least for right now, we're talking about finances. 

 I do believe this process I just felt is related to finances. I still feel some lurch in my stomach. I have never quite settled the feelings related to not knowing where my next money was coming from to eat or pay rent or pay for my basic needs or wants. I have, fortunately, always had help. By the grace of my life and my friends and family and the Universe. But it is still scary.



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