Lesson 60: Or Maybe Not…

"Reality is not something you face but something that you're Creating.
In my own experience and that of many of the spiritual-minded types I've consulted with, this paradox is often the thing that most motivates and inhibits their success.
Is "Creating Your Own Reality" a highly evolved, deeper perception of Truth that liberates and Transforms our entire experience. . . or basically just total B.S.?
Most importantly, can we strike a balance between the two diametrically opposed viewpoints?"

First of all, I don't think these two things are a paradox. We are creating our reality. Many of us do not want to see, however, that what is around us right now is what we've created. I believe that is where we get stuck. 
I have no savings right now. I have created that. (I notice sensation coming up in my solar plexus). 
I have the capability right now to pay down 3 of my 4 credit cards in one month each. I have not chosen to do that. Instead, I have chosen to expend my energy and money in other ways. (Now I feel sensation coming up into my throat and it feels like I want to cry). I also acknowledge the places I have put my money have been for long-term betterment, though they may not show up on a financial sheet that way. I don't regret doing them. But I created this reality of maintaining my debt.

These are things I have done. They have not been done unto me. I could look at my finances and say "I don't have enough money to do that!" but it's not true. I do have money to save and invest and chip away at my credit cards and pay my taxes. I have just chosen other things. 
Acknowledging you have a choice and have chosen, I believe, is one of the most empowering moments a person can have. I have chosen what I have and don't have. Now, is that what I want to continue choosing?



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