Lesson 74: Step One

I'm starting to feel anxious.

I read today's lesson. Like I said, I review my own numbers on a consistent basis. It's a different thing to imagine someone else may be reading them too. Though I don't know who my public is, I know I have a small one. Having some witness to this experience is part of what potentizes it.

And makes me feel anxious. Nervous. My hands are getting sweaty. There's some churning (again) in my solar plexus.

Ok...

"today just list the broad categories that you know you pay consistently each month you consider as Necessities"

 Groceries
Dog and Cat Food
Credit Card Payments
Electricity
Internet
Rent
Phone
Car Gas
Car Insurance

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