Lesson 83: Checking It Twice

Let's be clear- this program offered up two different lists: 
Necessities that are somewhat fixed in outgoing expenditure and things I consider necessary. It doesn't mean food/shelter/water, but what I consider to be things I need on a regular basis. 
The second list is more Fluid and termed Luxuries. These are not the things I need but desires beyond that. At least, that was my interpretation.

 The questions being asked about this Luxury list seem to be about LUXURIES. Like spending a few hundred dollars on a Spa Day or brand new cars or shopping til one drops on things that will never be worn and hang in the closet with tags still on.

 I do believe we all have these tendencies inside us. There are things I have bought and never worn. Mind you, they probably cost me $15. My luxuries, however, seem to have more to do (at least I think) with quality of life and joy than with items. I don't buy shit to impress other people. When I do spend money on most of the things below, it is because I need some kind of renewal or there is a purpose in it. 

 I have bought new clothes recently because I'm going to Spain. They are for that purpose. I rarely get new furniture. It's been years. And I've never bought brand new big furniture. Ever. I get decorative accent things to change up my space, spending something like $10-$60 every month to every couple of years. 

 I am not an extravagant person. 

 Now, all that being said, when I do overspend it tends to be on dining/drinking/going out. This comes in waves too. Sometimes I barely go out at all. Other times I go out A LOT. With food, I think some of my issue comes with over buying at the grocery store and then also eating out. Sometimes the first begets the second, which winds up being very wasteful. 

 I have all that off my chest. Today's lesson: Breathe and check out my list...

 Travel - feels warm and good and right and nervous
Dining Out - has a hitch in my giddiup. It can be amazing, and then I can take it too far.
Drinking Out - similar to the one above, but I feel this in my chest.
Going Out - feel activated all over my torso
New clothes - this makes me feel like a victim of myself. Like, why do I shop so cheaply to adorn myself? I spend more money on things that are gone in moments than on things that can last and last. Part of the answer is how I feel about my body. 
New furniture - Similar to above. Like, why am I not taking care of my space better
Decorative things - Meh
Treats for puppy and kitty - Can't stop, won't stop
Movies - I love



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